So, I started writing a draft of the first blog i would post. I went the traditional route of explaining my life bit by bit, read it back to myself and realised it didn't reflect me whatsoever. I mean, in the real world, how are you meant to explain your entire life to a stranger in 5 minutes, or a page of A4 paper?
I feel a need to explain who i am and what i'm about, only i don't know exactly how to say it. I'm a massive people pleaser and i suppose that's exactly why i feel the need to explain myself. I'm stupidly sensitive: (again with the need for affirmation from people i don't know), and this causes problems left right and centre with my life. I get so easily stressed it's unbelievable which also causes problems, not just with people, but with my own mind and body. I guess only when you outline why your life is the way that it is, do you realise how much power your have over it. That said, it's far easier to point out the flaws than change the fundamentals of my personality isn't it. I also find it interesting that i jumped to point out the flaws than recognise the good qualities. I feel like recently i've been brainwashed into thinking that recognising good qualities only happens when you're boasting. And you know, i don't think i'm going to right now. I'll do it when i'm not tiered. Sorry for the fairly uninteresting beginning, but it's a beginning none the less. Tomorrow there'll be a better one.
